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Geralt z Rivii ([personal profile] gynvael) wrote2021-06-10 12:45 pm

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Geralt is always reachable by the network. Unless it's an emergency, expect not to hear back for a few hours, if not a few days.

To talk to him in person, you'll need to be in Cadens or go to his domain, a snowy mountain fortress. Yard is open; doors are locked. If he isn't around, leave a delivery with the white wolf.


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yenloss. c:

[personal profile] vixening 2021-09-15 02:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[ yennefer isn't entirely sure how she ends up at this door in particular. she has no memory of the door, or of this keep at all. she has no memory of anything at all, really, but she supposes that hasn't been too much of a problem as of yet. particularly with the help of her guide, a large white wolf, who has been at her side for the majority of her journey so far. she does not know of where he came, or why he came to be at her side at all, but through their long journeys through this strange place, he has been a fine companion. a welcome companion, if she is being honest with herself, for without him yennefer would undoubtedly be lost.

and in direct relation to that, she feels herself collect into something a bit less shifting. a bit less shadowed. she feels more herself, though she's not exactly certain who that is supposed to be. not exactly certain why it's this place, above the others, that pulls that from her.

she chooses not to worry too intensely about it, and as she opens up the next portal because she knows she can, because the wolf has taught her to, and as the wolf guides her through into a hallway, somewhere dark and cold, she pulls her coat more firmly around her as she continues on, up a set of stairs and then to a single door down a hall. the door itself is nothing particularly special, but yennefer can't help but be drawn further towards it, reaching for the handle and finding it...

well. finding it unlocked.

when she steps inside, she is met with a smell. it's the first thing she notices about the place, and as the door falls shut behind her, she lets herself be wrapped up in it. it's warm, comforting, familiar again in that way she's not sure she understands. she has no memories of it, of leather and of a horse she knows and of something else. something that seeps into her skin, calming her in a way she hadn't realized she had been tense. relaxing, where she hadn't realized she'd been stressed. she smells a faint hint of lilac and gooseberries and yennefer closes her eyes and settles into the warmth of the room, of the feeling of it. why am i here? she wants to ask the wolf, but she doesn't need to open her eyes to know he's left her, and so she gives in to the feeling. let's herself settle in it, for now.

it feels comforting. it feels safe, somehow, too. it feels different than all of those things as well, but yennefer isn't sure what to name those feelings quite yet.

she hopes she has the time to. hopes that she won't have to leave. hopes that somewhere in this room is an answer to all the questions she feels building up in her, even now. ]
vixening: (ia_200000031)

[personal profile] vixening 2021-09-16 03:55 am (UTC)(link)
[ she continues to allow herself those moments - standing in the midst of a room she's never been in and has never known, yet finds herself feeling so at home in. she doesn't know why, when she has no memory of home at all. no place that comes to mind when she thinks of this feeling, but there is something in the air. even with her eyes closed, she feels as if she knows this place - the pieces of armor, the simplicity of the bed, the candles, the weapons. some part of her knows what to do if she did choose to pick one of them up, as if she's held a blade before, though not those in particular. no, they are not her's, just like she knows this building is not either.

but this room. this room is different. she finally opens her eyes to look around, but can't seem to find what she's looking for. it's a strange feeling, like there is supposed to be something here that she can't place or name, but knows is missing. something that belongs in this space, that should be here, but isn't. she wants to step further inside, to run her hands along the wood and cloth, the leather and cloak, but it is right as she is about to make that step that the door opens.

it does not startle her, nor does it surprise her, though as she turns towards it her eyes do not reflect any sign of recognition. or at least - nothing so simple. that feeling, in her chest, does fall into place.

oh, it seems to say. it was you who i was looking for.

but she does not know this man, or at least, she does not have memories of him. as she turns to face him, her eyes narrow ever so slightly, like he's a puzzle she's trying to make out without all of the pieces. ]


You know who I am?

[ he is not the first, if that is true. she has run into others who have recognized her. but this, something about this, feels very very different from those other times. yennefer continues to watch him, though she has the sinking suspicion that she will not get the answers she seeks from his face alone. ]
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[personal profile] vixening 2021-09-17 10:31 pm (UTC)(link)
[ there's a tension in him that yennefer notices almost immediately following her question. a part of her feels as though she should, perhaps, feel bad for that. perhaps even scared. something about this man is different than what she expects, and something further tells her that his anger, his tension, can be dangerous. and yet she does not feel that fear, does not feel the need to do much more than simply blink as he stares at her - confident that even now, almost especially now - she is safe, here.

we've met.

yes, she supposes they have. she doesn't question him, because regardless of if she has memories of the matter, she knows it to be true. they have met. something in her says they have met more than once. more than that, even.

it is his next set of words that has her blinking, that searching, curious look from her pulling back to something a bit more confused. not only from what he says - you shouldn't be here - but the sound of his voice. what is it he's hiding? why does that roughness sound so familiar, not necessarily because she has heard it before, but because she knows (somewhere in her) what causes it. ]
My wolf? [ is it her wolf? that thought loosens the expression on her face. where did her wolf go? ] He led me here, to this room. It was unlocked, when I checked, and when I came inside... [ she closes her eyes and takes a deep breath, looking content again. calm. like she belongs. when her eyes open back up again, they are clear. all of her feels a little more clear. ]

It's warmer in here than the rest of this place. [ her eyes go to the door behind him, then back to his face. she likes the cut of his jaw, the gold of his eyes. it is somehow not at all strange to her, that his eyes are such a brilliant gold. they are his. ] Is this your room?
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[personal profile] vixening 2021-09-20 04:46 am (UTC)(link)
[ it is something to be noticed, something that she should probably consider more thoughtfully. her wolf, for whom she doesn't even have a name. her wolf, who she has followed across mountains and through pathways, down long walks and towards caravans she's never before seen. being with that wolf, following that wolf, had simply made sense. should she have questioned it? should she have thought what it was supposed to mean? perhaps. but so much of what she has found here has been wonderous, different, beyond her comprehension. and yet none of it has seemed dangerous.

yennefer does now know where her wolf has been leading her - if it is home, if it is somewhere else entirely - but she has followed. and each stop along the way has been worth the journey, even if she's still not sure its end. perhaps this is her end, if the wolf has disappeared. perhaps all this time, it's been leading her right here, right to him. he says his name again and something in his voice is all the confirmation she needs. yes, this is his room. yes, this is his place. his space. his.

but then what is that smell? and why does it make her feel like it's something that is her's? ]


I don't believe you. [ is what yennefer says, after it all. after he claims not to want her here, after a kind of tension settles through him. yennefer senses a shift in the air that she recognizes as cold, that is not warm and not inviting and not something that she could perhaps settle into. but it is somehow, despite all of that, familiar; in the same way that an old, trodden path is still familiar under an inch or so of snow. the same way that a room, empty, turned into a study space, that had once been a bedroom, can feel familiar even still. she does not know why these images come to mind, doesn't know why she suddenly feels this urge to push back against him, but the feeling is there.

even as her tone is stubborn, her eyes are searching, hungry to know what he is thinking, because she knows it is not what he is saying. she knows there is more going on, behind those golden eyes, just as surely as she had known her own name.

she takes a step towards him, then, feeling a sudden urge to reach out for him that she does not act on quite yet. ]


This is your room. But that smell isn't yours, is it?
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[personal profile] vixening 2021-09-21 03:06 pm (UTC)(link)
[ the noise that leaves him somehow isn't startling in the least, despite the roughness to its edges. yennefer watches this man that she knows, this man who she has met time and time again, this man who says you can't be here and i want you to leave and who she, almost in spite of those wishes, feels a more intense urge to stay. to stay in this room, that smells so achingly her's, except even that she cannot be sure. what she does know is she likes the feel of this place, does like the gold of his eyes, doesn't want to leave.

so she steps closer to him, close enough to touch, close enough to get a much better look at that cold edge in his eyes that she seems to watch melt before her. curious. interesting. somehow, even now, expected.

no, it isn't he says, and something in those words confirm what she had already been thinking. that maybe, just as she has no recollection of ever meeting him before but she knows she has, she also knows that the smell in his room. the smell that is wrapped around them even now, lingering softly somewhere in the warm air, is her's. it could be that she does notice the way he shifts, the way he breathes it in, or perhaps she's just grown used to accepting knowledge that she somehow knows, even if she's not sure why, or how.

it is that next part that has yennefer curious. he means something much greater behind those words, something that she also has that strange, complicated familiarity associated with, and something about them tightens at her chest. a drop in her stomach that should remind her of...of...what? that this isn't real? that none of this is happening? because there's another part of her that doesn't agree, that is now seeing him step even closer, so that she has to crane her neck up to keep the eye contact. he is so close to her, now, so close that she could reach out and set a hand on his chest if she chose to - and her hand lifts, then, as if thinking about it. her eyes go from his chest, to the medallion set right before her. she reaches out to run her fingers across the face of it, along the design that - too - is familiar and yet not. then her eyes flit back up to his eyes again.

it isn't real he says. ]


Do you want it to be?
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[personal profile] vixening 2021-09-23 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
[ it doesn't take much for her to put the pieces together. whether or not she remembers it, her body seems to- aching to shift closer to him, to be closer. her fingers run across the howling wolf and she doesn't need to see the carving to know. she wonders if she pressed her hand to his chest if she would feel the beat of his heart, if she would know that too, but his hand catches hers before the has the chance to. runs a calloused thumb across scars she doesn't remember making.

he says no and something inside her tenses, reacting to the flatness of his voice. what rises in her is a kind of defensiveness, a sudden urge to step back away from him again even when she was the one to close the distance in the first place. it's a hard feeling to place, and as that uncertainty around what it is supposed to mean fills her, she can feel her features start to shift again, another flicker of what was, what she might still be, perhaps what she should be without her memories.

because that's the problem, isn't it? she doesn't know who she is supposed to be. she is lost, both in this realm and otherwise, and she hates the feeling of it. of not knowing where to turn. of what to do. there is a strange distortion to it - to knowing she should know, to having the bodily sense to know that she always knows what she is doing, but here? with this man, who looks at her like he wants to say one thing, and then says something different?

he won't have the chance to push her hand away, not really, because she pulls it away from him at the almost exact same moment. in the following second, her expression settles as does her features, her brow furrowed as she stares at him. she nearly steps away from him, but stops herself as he cuts his eyes away from her face. he doesn't look at her, after that confession, but what for? ]


No, you don't. [ she says simply, and though there is still some anger to her eyes, her voice is smooth. cool, as if chilled. he looks away from her, and so yennefer refuses to budge, waiting for his eyes to return again. because they will - even if she doesn't know from where she came, or even to where she will go, she knows that. ] Not as I am.
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[personal profile] vixening 2021-09-23 02:03 pm (UTC)(link)
[ without any specific understanding of how it is she is changing, yennefer has nothing to hide when he looks at her more closely. she does not know what he sees, and a while a part of her feels the intensity of the stare, a stronger, fully part refuses to back down from it. there is something in her that he can't quite look away from, no matter if she is the one he wants or not. yennefer likes that feeling, likes his attention, when it's on her. likes the fact she can stop him, mid-step, with a single comment.

truthfully, she isn't sure exactly what she wants. she wants him to stay, but upon seeing him turn away, some part of her wants him to go, that wants her to have the chance to be alone in this room that she feels so intricately attached to. without her realizing it, she had begun to hope something in here may tell her who she is, who she was, if she had the time to find it. especially now that he won't give her any of that insight.

except that he does rise to meet her, does match that tension, and she can't help but be drawn to that. to the way he comes to meet her. the way he rises and falls like the tide. it's a bit addicting, in a way - to know that she can shift and he will shift with her. that, given the right words or wrong tension, she can pull a reaction from a man she is certain (though she's not exactly sure how) doesn't usually react to much. ]


I don't remember anything. [ she says, just as coolly as before. like some part of her wants to say it isn't special, that he isn't special, just because she doesn't remember him. (or maybe she means to say that she didn't mean to forget him at all, that more than anything she wants to remember him). because even while his voice is quiet, her's is still firm. still tense.

when you do he says, and yennefer feels that defensiveness rise in her again. this time, she's not confident from where - if it's the idea that he knows better and the tone at which he says it in, the fact that before anything she wants to say don't patronize me though a good part of her somehow knows he isn't. he reaches for the door to leave and yennefer watches him go, feeling some odd combination of vindication - that he is the one to leave, rather than her - and loss. always loss. why does the view of his back draw such a visceral feeling of it in her gut? if anything, she's glad he's got his back turned to her, so he won't have to see the way that feeling pulls an actual, visible reaction from her.

she won't say don't go. she won't. no matter how much she might feel the urge to. ]


I think I find martyrs quite boring, actually. [ she will say, either to his back, or to the closing door. whatever it is she finds meeting her.

yennefer has no intention of leaving this room, so if he will leave instead, it will give her time to investigate. to turn back to the few items, the limited furniture, the smell. she has things she wants to look into, things she needs to touch, to feel, to hopefully use to spark something. anything. because her memories are what is important, here, and this is the closest thing she's found to something familiar. ]
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[personal profile] vixening 2021-09-26 07:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[ but that’s the biggest issue here, isn’t it? because there are a lot of things she will realize, when she remembers. a lot of this that will mean a lot more and be very different. but for now, yennefer watches this man disappear through the door and doesn’t understand why she suddenly feels sick. that the vision of his back, even when she knows he is simply stepping it into a hallway she herself had been in not that long ago, it feels like this will be it. that she may never seen him again, that this might be it, and she hates it. hates this feeling, how it rips at her insides, how young and terrible and weak it somehow manages to make her feel.

it pulls anger out of her, though she can’t quite figure out why. she doesn’t like the feeling, doesn’t like feeling angry with him, but he disappears through the doorway and she turns back to the room and with a flick off her wrist, a bout of energy pushes through the room. not enough to destroy anything, not even enough to move anything from their places. just a jump, a push, off-setting what had felt so pristine and so him.

the wolf is at her side, then. she hadn’t heard him walk in, hadn’t heard the door open or close. she glances down to see the gold eyes looking back to her, and that anger dissipates, leaving her a bit tired no a bit lost and a bit…lonely isn’t the word, necessarily, but it fits close enough that yennefer breathes out a quiet, defeated sigh. ]


I’m assuming you knew that would happen, hmm? [ she says to the wolf, letting her hand lower to run back along his head and neck. her eyes scan the room, at the shift she’s made, at the realization that the smell still lingers. her smell. in his room. and somewhere in that echo are words she doesn’t quite place, can’t quite decide if they are supposed to be her’s, or his, or someone else’s entirely. you’re important to me

when yennefer exhales this next time, it is with a decision having been made. she is still anger, and part of her is comfortable with that feeling, now. a familiar burning in her chest. she moves around to each piece of furniture, picking up everything she can and running her hands along the things she can’t. there is a distinct feeling of being to leave something behind, of there needing to be something she’s done, to this room, that will be remembered. without realizing if she’s done something or if it is instead the horizon coming to meet her, yennefer’s wrist adjusts and through her fingers is a pendant - or perhaps a coin - just smaller than the one she had run her fingers over moments prior. her eyes scan the image engraved onto its surface, noting its association. a lilac sprig and a branch of gooseberries, embedded with tiny amethysts. without meaning to, yennefer moves to settle on the bed, and without any thought to it (or perhaps to much thought, no one but the wolf, who jumps up to settle next to her on the bed, will know) she tucks the coin-shaped pendant under the candle stick on the bedside table.

he wants her, he had said, but not as she is. well- he will, remember her for how she is. whether he finds what she’s left for him or not, she will have been here. she will have made a mark.

yennefer supposes she could leave - this isn’t her room, and she is sure there are other places she must go to other places she must be, but the wolf at her side yawls, comfortably, and yennefer feels herself smile. feels the softness of his fur when she runs her fingers down his spine. ]
That’s not such a bad idea. [ and so she curls up onto the bed, herself. kicking off her shoes and tucking her feet up under the skirts of her dress, setting her cheek down against the wolf and closing her eyes.

she does not recall falling asleep, isn’t even entirely sure she is sleeping at all, but when she finds herself blinking awake, when she is struck by an almost panic to turn and make sure - he is there. yennefer looks to him with softer eyes, the cut of his jaw in the burning candlelight, the disappearing sun. the wolf is still curled up next to her, his breathing even and undisturbed, and there is another feeling in this moment that she cannot quite place, of an immeasurable relief and release of tension, of recognizing his weight, on the bed next to her.

she does not sit up, but he must know she’s awake. must know that she still wants his fingers in her hair, no matter how light the touch. ]


You came back.
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[personal profile] vixening 2021-09-27 01:42 am (UTC)(link)
[ there is a moment, barely the span of a breath, where she feels that panic swell. it lasts just until she sees him, just until his fingers move once again. even now, she’s more aware of her own relief than anything else - how tense he seems to be, how they both wait for the other before they do anything at all. part of her wonders what he is looking for, what it is that might drive him away. he is standing on the edge of something, but she’s not sure if she’s supposed to push or pull to keep him steady.

thankfully, in those silent moments between them, it must be answer enough. because he softens, visibly and otherwise, and yennefer feels like it’s a sort of secret between them. that the eyes he looks at her with are something to be held close to her chest, not shared with anyone else. she doesn’t know why - they obviously mean something to each other, why wouldn’t he look at her with such an expression?

i never left he says, and yennefer smiles in the sort of sad, gentle way where they both know that isn’t true, that he has left. if not this time, then a time before. and that her greeting to him - some how, in some way that she doesn’t understand - still stands. you came back. she won’t say it again, but he moves to settle alongside her and she adjusts to face him in return, feels the movement of his hand down her shoulder. there is a deep-rooted need to shift closer to him, to close the distance and to line herself up along him, because she knows, in that distance, disconnected way, that she will fit.

yennefer does not move closer to him. does not tangle their legs. but she does let her cheek settle into the pillow and she does watch him with gentle eyes, that same feeling fighting something inside her. like she needs to memorize his face, every detail of him she can. like this might be the last time she will see it for herself.

his eyes glance to the wolf, who is still curled up against the back of her legs, still sleeping pressed against her, and the rhythm of his breathing keeps that tight fear that this time is running out at bay. white fur, warm where she’s been curled around him. but her eyes don’t leave this man’s, this face, this person who she has no real, no distinct, memory of knowing. yet who she feels she knows so deeply it almost scares her.

neither do you she doesn’t say. ]


Does he need one?
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[personal profile] vixening 2021-09-27 04:44 am (UTC)(link)
[ maybe that is why she doesn’t find the nameless wolf all that surprising, why she sees no issue with following, with trusting, with keeping the wolf by her side. this man who looks across to her, who had whispered i want you so quietly, who looks at her now in this bed, that is his, in a room, that smells like her - he doesn’t have a name, and still she feels this way. he doesn’t have a name, or at least not one she can remember, and it doesn’t change this moment. she knows him, whether or not she has a name to call him, and with or without his name, she still feels the pull that keeps her here, the pull that makes her want him to stay.

to be important to someone. to have someone like him, who thinks her important.

during her time in this room, her edges have felt fuzzy, like the image of who she is can be just out of focus. but he looks at her now with eyes that make her feel herself, whoever that is supposed to be. with those eyes in her, such an oddly warm, different and yet expected, tint to them. they are his, only his, and with everything she has forgotten and everything she doesn’t know, she is certain that is something she can never forget - that those eyes are his, and how it makes her felt, when they look to her like they are now.

the edges of his mouth turn up, and her chest both tightens and loosens at the sight. like the flick of a firefly, in the middle of summer, a brief spark of something special, something rare but her’s. yennefer feels herself smile back, not because she knows what he finds entertaining, but because she wants to encourage the smile to remain. ]


Is that all? [ and there is a hint of humor around the question, like it is some inside joke that even she wouldn’t know the background of. is that all that separates them? is that all it takes? her eyes flicker over his face for another, brief moment, before returning to his eyes. she feels it too - the closeness, despite their distance. the comfort it brings. ]

What would you name him?
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[personal profile] vixening 2021-09-27 06:16 am (UTC)(link)
[ what has changed? it’s a good question, if he cares to voice it. what was so different between the tension they’d shared and this easy existence? yennefer wouldn’t be able to name it, if he asked, but she would be able to acknowledge it - that they could so easily be that, and also this. that somehow, both versions of them felt right. both versions had felt like them, whatever that is supposed to mean in a world where half of the them has no recollection of when it started. when they became a them at all.

considering how their conversation had gone earlier, perhaps she should be more surprised to feel a rhythm build. perhaps this should be so simple, so effortless. she wants to talk like this forever, perhaps. to share the glow of candlelight and this warm bed. she feels encased, but not trapped - the wolf at her back and those golden eyes at her front, chuckling, light, joking about fangs like anything could be as simple.

her smile grows, holding back what could probably be a laugh, some small part of her terrified that if she makes too abrupt a sound that it may shake them both out of sync. instead, he says yen with a kind of softness that she feels through her ribs, her own curiosity bubbling. ]


Why is that? [ that he’s the last person to ask, the last person she would want to ask. she doesn’t believe that, somehow, and it makes her deathly curious - but she doesn’t push it. instead, she leans back onto her back on the bed again, turning her face back to the wolf. to her companion, through this journey. to her guide, her friend, to the one reason she was brought here at all. she runs her fingers along his soft white fur, feeling it through her fingers, the gentle rhythm of his breath.

a name. what should she name it? what does a person, with no memories, no schooling, no idea of where her own name has come from - supposed to name her longest (active memory alone) companion?

yennefer is silent, for a few moments, lost in thought. ]


Gwiazda. [ she says, after a moment - turning her attention back to him, though her hand remains on the wolf. it is not so much that she’s waiting for approval so much that she’s curious if it fits what he had expect to hear. ]
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[personal profile] vixening 2021-09-28 03:40 am (UTC)(link)
[ it had not even occurred to yennefer that the wolf could not be this gentle, with her. had not even crossed her mind that threading her fingers through his soft white coat could be something tense, something dangerous. this wolf had been her companion, through her many journeys across this land, and she had every step of the way felt watched over. felt like this is where she is meant to be, with the wolf at her side, guiding her through the dark.

she may not have memories, to lead her. and even now, she has flashes of uncertainty about what it is she should be doing, who she should be, but she had never been uncertain about him. gwiazda, she says aloud, unsure of where it comes from. star. she feels the wolf under her hand stir, awoken by what she could even say is the sound of his own name, but she does not pay him much mind. instead, yennefer's eyes are on him, on the tired way his eyes fall closed. it pushes her up onto her elbow, drawing just a bit closer to him as his eyes fall shut.

gently, her fingers trace along the man's brow. across scars that she knows, but doesn't, down the side of his face, to his jaw. there is something inherently familiar about the feeling, of having him this close, of the barest touch under the pads of her fingers. she feels herself smiling, after a moment, as she watches him fight what is certainly sleep. ]


I think he does too.

[ the wolf, or him, yennefer doesn't specify. instead, she lets her finger brush back into the strands of silver-white hair at his temple. there's a kind of low tension in her, a worry that if she moves too quickly, if her touch is too firm, it might scare him into leaving again. again.

she doesn't know why her body reacts the way it does to that word, but the truth is - she does not want him to leave, and she doesn't want to either. her body is closer, now, it has to be for her fingers to so easily brush across his face, and her mind goes back to the thought. that she could be closer, if she wanted to. that they could be, if either of them did, and she watches him fight the heaviness in his own eyes. ]


Why do you do that?
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[personal profile] vixening 2021-09-29 03:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ it's a strange feeling, to have no awareness of another time where she has touched him just like this, but to know that this isn't the first. to brush her fingertips along his brow, his cheek, his hair, and to know she's felt it before. they have been this close before, and her body seems to know the proximity better than she ever could, but there is also a strange sort of...lack. nothing lacking, necessarily, but a distinct notice that - perhaps before - there had been much more in her chest. there had been more going on.

right now, yennefer does not mind the simplicity. in fact, part of her wonders if this is something she has looked for. yearned for. and yet still, even now, it feels as though it will not last.

he blinks at her, but she knows it is not in confusion. knows that somewhere, back behind those golden eyes, he knows what she means to ask. it's a strange sort of feeling, to know that he knows. to be seen and understood more fully by the person looking at her than she does herself. but between julian and ciri, and now him, yennefer sees no reason to push back against it. or, maybe, it is just because of him. just because this moment, with him looking up to her, with that crooked smile, a breath out through his nose - this is not something she would soon forget, memories or no. perhaps she never did.

yennefer smiles back to him, still quite soft around the edges, as her finger traces across his brow, down the arch of his nose. her eyes follow her fingers, follow the stretch of skin she runs across, trying to re-memorize something she is so sure he already knows. ]


Second guess yourself, when you have something nice. [ there is more she could say here, perhaps. about how she is referring to how much he obviously wishes to sleep. how, even earlier, when he'd looked at her and said no. perhaps her words could be taken to mean more, about this, about them, but that's not exactly what she means, either.

yennefer pulls her fingers from him, then, though with some reluctance. she shifts her body, too, to lay back into the spot she had been in. to set her cheek down against the pillow and to look at him without much expectation. she is curious, yes, but she is curious because it is him. and maybe the truth is that she is curious because she doesn't know. maybe all of these things she has been feeling are merely figments of her imagination. maybe they aren't because the man who lays across from her is her's, in any way at all.

but she wishes he was. hopes he is. wonders, briefly, who the woman is that he wants her to be. which is why, with her next words, there is a sort of tilt to them. fondness, but something more. distance, perhaps. she smiles again, though it is a bit heavier. ]
You should be allowed something good, every now and then.

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