[ He can feel himself searching for the same. A reason to stay. It carries echoes of their first few meetings. Together, lingering, looking for an excuse not to leave because staying simply to stay was too much. It was more than what they had been willing to extend to each other at the start.
And by the time he decided he wanted to stay, just because, it was her turn to leave every time. Perhaps that's how it's always fated to go for them. Those small, missed moments.
(What if he had insisted she come with him to the Free Cities? What if he had stayed with her in Thorne? Would anything change?
No. The answer to that, he already understands. Not with the choice she will make, that she does not yet remember. It is not like him, anyhow, to wish for what-ifs. But where Yennefer is concerned, he so often falls into thoughts, feelings, that are not like him at all.) ]
Keep an eye on him. [ Istredd is not yet a threat, but he has the potentially to rapidly become one. Of course, Yennefer already knows that, but it is not why he says it. It's the first time since they felt the memories return, that he has asked her to do anything where protecting Ciri is concerned. He wants to trust her again. He does. And he is still angry, some part of him, still hurt, but—
—he'd told her once he will not wait for her while she lives in the past. And in a sense, he realizes he cannot demand she let go of what is lost, of what can no longer be changed, when he will not move on, either.
He rises, then pauses. ] I know you do not need my help. But you do have it, Yen. Should you ever want it.
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And by the time he decided he wanted to stay, just because, it was her turn to leave every time. Perhaps that's how it's always fated to go for them. Those small, missed moments.
(What if he had insisted she come with him to the Free Cities? What if he had stayed with her in Thorne? Would anything change?
No. The answer to that, he already understands. Not with the choice she will make, that she does not yet remember. It is not like him, anyhow, to wish for what-ifs. But where Yennefer is concerned, he so often falls into thoughts, feelings, that are not like him at all.) ]
Keep an eye on him. [ Istredd is not yet a threat, but he has the potentially to rapidly become one. Of course, Yennefer already knows that, but it is not why he says it. It's the first time since they felt the memories return, that he has asked her to do anything where protecting Ciri is concerned. He wants to trust her again. He does. And he is still angry, some part of him, still hurt, but—
—he'd told her once he will not wait for her while she lives in the past. And in a sense, he realizes he cannot demand she let go of what is lost, of what can no longer be changed, when he will not move on, either.
He rises, then pauses. ] I know you do not need my help. But you do have it, Yen. Should you ever want it.